Tuesday, May 13, 2008

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

What does the above 7 letters mean to you? It means the world to me, apart from my family. Have this conversation about friends afew days ago at starbucks with XXX. I told XXX that i am really really unhappy nowdays, because some people don't think friends are as important nowadays. And its them who used to tell me how they see friends are important. I told XXX, 'if they think friends aren't as important, why say friends are number 1 in the first place? they should have said that they are number 2 or 3 instead.' XXX told me, ' human are all selfish, they seldom think of others but only when they think they are right, they won't know the hurt they have done to you.'
BUT WHY?? Aren't i always there for them, when their hearts are broken by useless jerks, aren't i always available to them even when i have a boyfriend to accompany too? To me, no matter what, friends are always number 1. To them, it seems like friends are ONLY NUMBER 1 when they are SINGLE. Once attached, friends dropped down to the third placing. Although they still assure friends nv lost its place, they should know what is actions are louder than words. Their behaviour, actions and all told the truth. Friends did drop its placing.
I told XXX since thats the case, i shall find a bf real soon and if, i say IF, they broke up with their bf or quarrel with them or what and they call me up, i will just happily tell them straight that i rather spend time with my guy than with them. Let them know how hurt it is to be when friends left you out due to spending time with their bf.
XXX says that i shouldn't use revenge although they left me out, but to still be there for them. Thats what i don't understand. Yes, i am still available for them whenever they need me, but why should i continue like this? They don't even appreciate our time together, and in the end, after they patch up with their boys, i am thrown aside again. And XXX told me that human are selfish, then why can't i be selfish too? Isn't it unfair to me, that i have to always be there for them when they need me but they need not be there for me when i need them? But i am sorry, i do have my selfish moments too. Cos to me, friends are those who should be always there for their friends, even if they have bfs. If my friends are attached and still be there for friends, of course i will be with them no matter what happens. BUT if they are attached and don't know how to be there for others, then i don't know how to categorise them under true friends anymore.
Don't be mistaken, people. I am happy that those i care found their happiness :D. But while having a great time with their guys, shouldn't they spare a thought for their friends too. If they believe friends always come after bf, then in the first place, they should just be straight forward and tell me 'friends cannot compare with bf'. Why lie?
'Why say friends are important, guys are shit' when they are single, then ruin the whole sentence when they are attach? Now this used to be the most wonderful sentence among frineds have change to 'guys are important, friends are only people you used to pass your boredom.'

So, in the end, you won't even know who are your true friends until the friendship is taken to test in the real world.

Anyway, thanks to XXX for all the advice, i really appreciate it. And i know you are always there to hear me out no matter what!! I still remember some time ago, after a major quarrel with my used-to-be bf, i cried and was feeling super miserable and the first person that came to my mind is actually you! I cried in the bus all the way back to bedok then when you came, i cried even harder. At that time, i just want to pour every single sorrow on you. And you are there to hear me out, to comfort me, to advice me, to make me smile. ^^ And thats what makes you a really important person in my life. One thing i am really thankful to heavens is that, i have found such a great friend and of cos, i will definitely cherish this friendship!
Of course, other than XXX, i have a few other really really really great friends who never fail to hear me out too!
you people really really make my day XD

uberly disappointed.

With ♥ 9:04:00 am